It Sucks Not To Be A Lady

50 something and smart men have really gotten into me, nowadays. They are like leeches that I’m trying to get rid of. They are like chemicals that become toxic in my body. Okay, that’s enough! Some might ask, why the hell do I want them to get rid out of my freaking mind?

I tell you why, because those guys are impossible to be true, too good to be real. And what really pisses me off is that those men will never be attracted to a girl like me. A “girl” which for me, the exact meaning is immature, self-centered, stubborn and childish. Those 50 something guys are looking for a “woman”, to be exact a lady–35 and above yrs old.

I hate those writers, they made those men hard to find in real life. Yeah, I blame it all on the writer. They made my life miserable and hoped that someday in my life I met that sort of a man. I am filled with indignation so I am complaining.

The first person that I was eyeing before was doctor nine from the series Doctor Who (played by Christopher Eccleston). He will always be my favorite doctor. Next is Mr Adrian monk. Third is Will Mcavoy of the newsroom and now it’s Dr. Gregory house!!! His name makes my heart pound like thunder ( No!!! I’m not kidding, I really have an intense feeling towards his character, his eyes, his bad ass attitude, his intelligence, his carelessness, his self pity, his ego, I would rather say his whole persona. Hugh Laurie perfectly fits the role.

*He was extra charming when he’s about to begin his diagnosis and unravel the truth underneath the patient’ s lies.

*Being a dick towards his patient, actually, he’s a dick to everybody. It undeniably adds up to his appeal

*Being always under control ( hahaha I’ll be submissive to whatever you want, I promise.)

*Showing that he doesn’t seem to care about anything but failing to hide it anyway, at the end of the day.

*He ignited some interesting conversations. (What the hell, of course it needs to be an interesting conversation because it is scripted!! Duh!! Inner side of me talking) yeah, I am delusional.

Now tell me, tell me why I shouldn’t have an obsession with this man.

I get it all mixed up, my bad. I can’t blur the difference between boring-real life-conversation and a smart-for-the-viewers-conversation. But this is my blog, I can say what I want to say for my amusement!


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What would you say if you meet Carl Sagan

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What would you say if you met Carl Sagan?

The one of the most loves of my life is in front of me, waiting for me to talk? Whoa! Whoa! Wow! That is a great question. I don’t know if I could act normally in front of him, most likely, I guess I’ll be tongue tied and run out of words to say.

First off, okay, I would say what a great human being you are. Let me bear your sixth child? LOL! That was a ridiculous thing to ask. But seriously, I would tell him that! No offense Ms. Ann Druyan.

Carl will say no! I’m just being delusional, so why would I waste my time asking him that stupid thing. Forgive me.

Okay! I’ll start all over again.

Hi Mr. Carl Sagan, you don’t have any idea how I feel right now that I had a chance to meet you. It’s incredible. You didn’t know me but I know you, sort of, not well enough. Anyway, I’ve watched your Cosmos series and I considered it as one of the greatest series of all time. I’m not saying this to impress you, I’m saying this ‘because it is true. And I’m pretty sure you are aware of how great you are. I remember the very 1st episode of The Cosmos; a man in a light brown suit calmly explained and illustrated artificial selection using Heikegani – a species of crab native to Japan, with a shell that bears a pattern resembling a warrior face. Because of the belief that these crabs carry the soul of the Heike warriors who died during the Battle of Dan-no-ura- they opted not to kill them when caught while fishing. This group of people particularly selected them to thrive. Which for me is a great example to teach what artificial selection is for everyone. A man who brought us science in a language that we actually understood. Right there and then, I was hooked. You did a great job here on Earth, undeniably. Thank you for fighting for science, for fighting for the truth. You taught us to think for ourselves or we are just up for grabs by charlatans. 

You are one of my science geniuses, my hero who was responsible for my Cosmos consciousness. This awareness of mine has changed my perspective radically. From being nationalist (as a former idealist) to a human being who looks at the earth as one nation, as a whole, as a pale blue dot. Through this lens, you can see how fragile humans can be. Our ego was not visible in space and I think it is important to bury this in our minds as a constant reminder. It’s inspired me to look differently at my place in the universe and accept how insignificant we are.  I became what you called a child of cosmos. Your ideology is far more marvelous across the globe than you have ever imagined it.

It touches my heart in every possible way, which is not unlikely to happen – because you’re such an impressive teacher. I even hope that your Cosmos series could make its way to every home television or even have a part of the syllabus in every nation’s educational system. When that day comes, hopefully, that would be one of the greatest things to happen on Earth.

I’m hoping that I’ll meet a guy just like you. Imagine if all the political leaders around the world could somehow think exactly just like the way you think, this will be a better place sir.

Why so soon, sir? Why did you leave us so soon? I know you are now in the depths of the cosmic arena that you have always dreamt to become a part of.